Thursday, April 3, 2014

Strange Changes

Today was the second kind of slow day at work, which was such a stress relief.  I actually caught myself taking deep, cleansing breaths and exhaling long sighs of contentment.  
I get commissions on my sales, but I appreciate a break every now and then.  It gave me a chance to google some of the strange symptoms I've been having, the massive hair loss, rapid weight gain, joint pain, inability to warm up when everyone else says the room temp is perfect, extreme exhaustion, foggy brain, and my latest weird symptom, my finger nails are starting to change, flattening and bumps or pits out of them.  A lot of the sign of hypothyroidism are similar or the same as iron deficiency, but I already take 325mg/day (12mg is the normal amount women need).  So if I am still somehow deficient, that would lead me to believe something more serious is underlying.  On the other hand, I read that most Drs only do one test for thyroid function, TSH, and that particular test can come out normal when the others will tell the real story.  I was only given that one test, and I was on the upper end of normal.  The more I read about what your fingernails say about your health, the more I was convinced not to ignore my gut. Most changes in nails happen due to systemic issues.  So tomorrow I am going to finally get some blood work done that's been waiting for me since before Christmas. Just lipids ( to check my cholesterol ) and vitamin D since she upped my dose.  It will be interesting to see if my cleaner diet, including the Garcinia Cambogia has paid off in my blood work.  And I will likely schedule an appointment soon to discuss my other symptoms.  
I did read that some people have a side effect of sleepiness when taking GC, so I cut my dose back a little.  As it is, most days I only remember to take it twice a day instead of 3 times.  I think I'll take a break from it when this bottle runs out, to see how I feel off of it.  
Today I heard those beautiful words we fat girls LIVE to hear, "Are you losing weight?"  It came from my favorite coworker, a busy retinology nurse that it get too see all too sparsely.  It made me feel great!  Even though the scale cheated me last week and the measuring tape was a big meany, I FEEL thinner, and maybe in some miraculous way I am.  I don't dwell on the numbers right now, I'm in a good place.  That is, when I have the energy to move!
So glad tomorrow is Friday!  Hope you all have a great weekend!

Tuesday, April 1, 2014


Today pushed me around like a punk!  And it is just one in a string of days that have been like this since Spring Break ended.  My older son, who has an alphabet of letters to discribe his disorders, is completely off his ADHD medicine due to a severe increase in tics, and we can't get in to see his doctor for 2 more weeks.  Because he has Autism, he has a fairly patient team of people who work with him, but they are also trying to ween him off support he won't have when he goes to middle school next year.  So what he doesn't get done at school comes home as homework, and for someone who (off meds) has difficulty regulating emotions and maintaining focus, means A BUTTLOAD of homework every night.  And the fact that his focus isn't any better at home means that by the time I get through a busy day of working alone on my office, picking up the kids, getting homework done with them and helping ease them to sleep, I am so exhausted I feel like I've been through a personal tornado!  
Whew!  Tonight I did actually have a half hour gap between homework and bedtime, so I indulged in a bubble bath,  which was a better choice than the wine I'd been fantasizing about after I shut the lights off in my office tonight.  
Despite it all, I have been doing well on my eating, or at least, I feel like I have.  My first week on Garcinia Cambogia I lost 3 pounds and 6 inches!  I was so excited and started dreaming of fitting back into some outfits that have been collecting dust in my closet since my regain.  My second week was a disappointment, with a gain of 1 pound and 1 inch.  I felt thinner, more tone, and it was expecting the measuring tape to confirm, but it just wasn't there for me.   I know it is no big deal, but I just feel like I have to exert so much more to see any result, and then it is fleeting.  It frustrates me so much that I have considered going over my internalist's head and seeing an endocrine doc to see if they can give me answers.  I'm sick of being so exhausted and gaining weight so quickly/having such a hard time getting it off, even when I stick to healthy food and workout.  I just have a gut feeling that something is not right about that.  
On the oh-so-positive side, I am happy to report that my hip and knee have been feeing really good lately, must be the warmer weather and all the stretching/ strengthening.  I am delighted to walk with much less pain!  Hopefully that means a fun summer ahead!
Hope your week is off to a great start!