I focused on that tonight for my meditation, and asked why I am always bouncing between such extremes. My usual guides were all mumbling over one another but the face of a wise sage came to me and answered that I could not find balance because I did not have stability when I was young. Before I could ask more, the sage told me that it is up to me to make my own stability, to open up the middle path as an option to myself, and find my own way to steady my foundation. I was a little puzzled, I thought that is what I was doing by all this meditation work. I am still very new to all this, but I take everything I can from it because I know I won't have peace until I figure some things out. And, figuring things out is kind of fun.
Here's to unlocking the mysteries of your own mind!