I was able to meditate for a short period tonight. At first I saw the most adorable image of a baby elephant who'd accidentally flipped on its back, but it wasn't sad or scared, it was actually joyful. It is joyful to be different I thought, but maybe a more fitting sentiment is that it was happy with who it was and the position it was in.
I didn't want to get stuck in that one image, it showed up to tell me something and I took the point and turned my attention to my guides. When I dropped in on them, they were all just waiting around, waiting for me to ask a question I guess. So I asked. Why do I want to eat foods that damage my body? They all tried to speak at once, and I heard a stew of sounds and then the big guy broke through the noise and said (in a sad-but-fed-up manner) "Because you don't see your own worth. You think you don't matter." And unlike my conscious mind, that would have denied that comment, my subconscious question back was how do I know my own worth?and the answer once again was "give yourself to others, and you will know your worth.
I know it is face value and hidden value, I have been wanting to volunteer at my local Cerebral Palsy center, and do some charity work that I could involve my kids in. But I let things get in my way. And we all know what they say about good intentions. So maybe this is a message about intentions, and how they don't turn into actions on their own. I caught the message, it was hidden in a bunch of other stuff, but I caught it.