I imagine myself working out, getting back on track but then I wake up and feel burnt out, like I need to soothe myself and it all slips away. I have been noticing my mood has been slipping ever closer to depressed and just when I was about to blame it on the emotional roller coaster I've been on lately, I saw a clip about how effective exercise is on regulating our emotions. Yes, I've been through some heavy stuff but even when things are good/happy I still feel a cloud of sadness following me. I didn't feel that way when I was working out everyday. The part that sucks about it is, the feeling good doesn't happen until you start working out, so you have to start when your energy is already kind of low (assuming you're like me) and then the rewards of more energy and feeling better make an appearance. I keep learning about myself each time I make an effort, and each time I have more tools to use.
On Friday night, before I fell asleep at a ridiculously early time, I sleepily thought to myself, August is going to get its a$$ kicked by me, I'm going to work really hard and get this thing back on track! Well, maybe starting tomorrow. One month left to get into some good habits before my life gets a lot more chaotic. I'm battling my mind, I don't have a real strong track record in this situation, but I have more tools now than I did before. Let's hope it makes a difference!