I feel really good. And that feels really good to say! My sons are finally getting over their viruses, work has been a much more manageable pace, and I am not tortured over this diet. In fact, with all the veggies I've been eating, my skin looks more radiant and I feel...healthier. My joints hurt less too, I'm not sure if that is from losing weight or nixing the sugars, but I am moving like a normal 40-something instead of looking like I'm a step away from needing a walker. I can feel the slack in some of my clothes, and my mood is still much better than it was a couple weeks ago.
Last night my husband was eating mac and cheese right next to me and my typical reaction would have been wishing I could eat it too, but I'd just eaten a taco salad I made myself, and his carbfest didn't even appeal to me. Win for me! This is getting easier, slowly. I am starting to reap the rewards of not caving. I think what will be my tricky part is keeping things sane on the weekends when my family tends to eat out a lot. Last weekend we ended up at Chipotle and I ate a bowl of beans, veggies, greens and guacamole with their softritas, which is seasoned tofu. It was OK, not the biggest fan of how al-dente they cook their beans and the softritas mix is not something I love, but my family likes it there and I was happy I could eat something at a restaurant.
It has been more than a year since I've been in South Beach Diet, but every time I do, I am painfully reminded of how much I dislike protein! Meat or meat substitutes, tofu (unless it's deep fried like the Chinese restaurants do), textured vegetable protein (that even sounds disgusting right?), I just don't like it! I just ate a taco salad (using soy crumbles) and I almost couldn't even eat it I was so not enjoying the crumbles. I'm going to switch to seitan (wheat protein) for a few meals and see how that goes, if not, I'm giving up and relying on dairy, nuts and protein shakes (beans on occasion). One of the reasons I continue to fail on SBD is because of this whole protein issue. This is my first time trying it vegetarian and egg-free. I am weird about food, especially textures. I can't force my way through something I don't like (my husband can do that and it amazes me), so at least I'm learning even after starting and restarting this diet so many times. I feel positive that if I can keep learning what doesn't work, eventually I'll figure out what does, and then I'll run with it long-term. I feel like I am closer than ever to solving this food and emotions thing. That will be a lifesaver for sure. Literally. It's true what they say, the first steps are the hardest. Now that I'm past those first steps, I see smooth sailing ahead!