My mom is feeling better and so am I. I was pretty stressed out worrying about if I was going to lose her. She hates being a burden so much that she will lie and say she's doing better when she's not, just so no one has to go out of their way to come check up on her. Finally, my aunt and sister both checked on her yesterday and she was feeling much better, and was eating and drinking again. That felt like a really close call. She has said she won't wait so long to call for help next time.
If you have read my blog before you may already know how much I loathe snow. I actually have a good deal of anxiety over driving in it, so much so that there have been times when I am driving home from work and have spots before my eyes from the extreme anxiety/stress. It's one of the main reasons I pushed for us to move to California, and I almost got my wish. Almost.
This wasn't meant to be a weather-bashing blog but here I am. Not sorry, I know there are plenty of people out there who feel the way I do. Many of them feel stuck here because they have houses or don't want to leave for family,etc. I am not stuck. My last kid should graduate high school in 2023, that's only 6 years. Maybe we can revisit a move at that point. I may be ready to lift and haul stuff again by then.
Speaking of moving, while I don't really give my Fitbit Zip much thought, I did look at my steps taken during the move, because I was so exhausted from the extra activity I was curious to see where I was at. My typical steps per day, at least on work days, is somewhere between 7,000-10,000. Check out this reading from last Saturday:
Tomorrow is my annual physical exam and I am feeling good about it. I know I have lost a little weight due to how my clothes fit, and I'm expecting my blood pressure and cholesterol to be good too now that I don't eat sweets, but I think as an obese person, I still always get a little tense going into a doctor's exam from all the years of bad experiences; bad readings on blood pressure, bad numbers on the scale, really bad triglyceride levels in the past, bad iron and D3 counts. I will do a meditation tonight to recenter myself and remind myself that I am healthier now than I have been for about a year and a half. And, no matter what the results are this time, there is time and space for improvement, and I am making the positive changes in order to see those things happen.
Today I am gratful that my car started, that my kids have nice warm winter gear to wear and we were not late for the bus, and that the snow is not coming for a couple days yet. I am gratful I still have my mother and all my loved ones still with me. I am gratful Friday is coming, and with snow also coming, I plan to stay inside, start organizing my new place and maybe sneak in some reading or movie time while snuggled under a warm blanket! Maybe there is a reason to like snow aferall!