Anyway, while I was searching for photos, I found plenty of really aweful photos of me, and for a moment I stopped and thought about how nice it will be when I can have photos taken of me that don't make me cringe. Someday!
During my workout, I was thinking about what my husband said to me the other day, that very few people do what I am doing. He wanted to be sure I understood the magnitude of it. Of course I do. I have been trying to do this for 25 years. And then I thought about how aweful I have felt being unemployed for so long and for the first time I actually saw the blessing in it. It took this (seemingly horrible) life event to free up the time and space for me to focus on myself. How many people get this opportunity? It hasn't been easy living on one income, but now I know, there was a really remarkable reason why this is happening to me. And it is saving my life.
I will leave you with a few lines of the Flyleaf song, Again, that was particularily inspiring me today, as I imagined I was saying them to myself.
Here you are down on your knees again
Trying to find air to breathe again
And only surrender will help you now
I love you please see and believe again.